Thursday, June 5, 2014

Hopeful

Tuesday night, I started getting some contractions, nothing too terrible. But they started coming every 2-4 minutes. I was up all night timing them, waiting for them to get super painful, but they stayed the same. And I was NOT about to go to the hospital just to be sent home. So we kept timing, from 10 pm Tuesday to 5 30 am Wednesday, they came the 2-4 minutes without increasing intensity. Finally I got a stronger one. So we decided we better head in because I had been having regular contractions for 8 hours now. We go in, they completely admit us (I thought they would check me first...they didn't) then she checks me...I'm at a 2. Come again???? A 2???? I was at a 3 last time, but this nurse did not agree. I was at a 2. BUUUT my contractions were still regular. So they keep me hooked up for a couple hours, check again...a 2.

Confusion.

How can I be having all these contractions and NOTHING????

2 options. 1-Go home, eat what I want, try to sleep, move around and get them coming harder. 2-Break my water and have a super long and painful delivery. I opted for 1. Even though I was angry and sad because I did NOT want to go home, I felt like a loser, even though she assured me it was smart that I came in because they had lasted so long. Still embarrassing, and upsetting. Walking out of those doors babyless was upsetting. They didn't think I would make it through the night, let alone to my appointment coming up on Monday. But did warn me that I could still go until induction day... GRRR.

So we walk. Ty goes to work, I keep walking. I bounce on my yoga ball. I clean. I run my stairs. AND I finally get a couple strong ones mixed in with my still regular 2-4 minute contractions. YAY! Go for a long walk with Amanda, they keep coming...yay!!! Tyler gets home, we go on a long walk...they keep coming even more consistently...YAY!! We sit to make sure they're not Braxton Hicks. They go away. No more strong ones. Just the usual{REGULAR} ones that I have been having for almost 24 hours now. I'm discouraged and frustrated. We go to bed at 8-we're exhausted. It's been a long long Wednesday. I wake up at 10 to a strong one!!!...could this be it? I go down to my yoga ball and bounce...2 more. Then nothing. Again. Just go back to not too painful {REGULAR} contractions. I go back to bed and sleep until this morning.

Nothing. Not a single contraction.

I give up. I'm losing hope that this boy wants to come down! I had planned on going late my whole pregnancy. Of course I wished that he could come early, but I know the stats and didn't want to get my hopes up, so late it was. I had it in my mind. I could handle it. Then this week comes around and with all that happened I got my  hopes up. Lame. Lame. Lame. I should have known better. I still don't think he'll be here on his due day (Sat, the 7). I think I'll go a week late and have to be induced. I have up trying to get him here. We're just going to have to wait.

Monday, June 2, 2014

Baby Update

Today I'm at 39 +2. But I'm going to back up a bit so that I have everything down.

36 weeks: No dilation/40% effaced.
37 weeks: No progress even after jumping on the tramp and playing volleyball. Group B strep negative.
38 weeks: 1 cm!!! Still about 40% effaced.
39 weeks: Today. My doctor is out of town so I saw a nurse practitioner and she was awesome as well. I kept telling myself before hand that if nothing changed it's all good because technically I'm not due until Saturday. Well as it turns out I'm 3 cm dilated and 75%!!!!!! So she stripped my membranes, which surprisingly didn't hurt and we were told to start walking. Buuuut after I sat up I got super dizzy and black spots. I've only passed out fully once, but it's hard to forget what it feels like. Dr. noticed, so she had me lay back down, had super bad contractions for a  couple minutes, but after about 30 minutes, some apple juice and crackers later I could walk again! Apparently a major drop in blood pressure is uncommon, but it is a side effect of membrane stripping. Now I feel fine, but because of it Dr said no walking by myself so I'm sequestered to my yoga ball and the stairs until tonight.

But we're hoping today is my last day without a baby!! We will see. If he decides to cook longer I'm fine with that, but today made me super anxious! haha Next blog post better have a baby picture :)